tuhan,

akan aku menulis di dada - dada langit.
tentang suatu-suatu rasa yang aku alami.

tuhan,

syukur,
atas nikmat, berkat, dan rahmat.
aku bukan siapa-siapa tuhan.

tapi aku mohon,

jaga hati aku untuk kusyuk, patuh, dan taat.

andai besok tiada aku di dunia,
biarlah yg amal sekecil zarah pun, akan kau kira.

dan aku bukan antara yang terhumban di pintu neraka.

ampun tuhan, pinta aku.

selamat malam semua.

u tak pernah fikir akibat perbuatan u.

u fikir dunia ni besar dan u boleh lari.

tapi u silap.

boring!

one two three cut!

action!

what i want now is:

great and stable career.
beat my 10km to be within 59minutes!
new car.
comfort house to stay.

that's it.

i wanna set my mind free.

i want to have freedom.

i want to be free.

it just crossed my mind yaww.

LISTEN,

HAVE YOU HEARD THIS PHRASE SAYING THAT:

LOVE DOESN'T NEED A REASON !

LAST BUT NOT LEAST: MY LAST NOWDAYS HABIT WORDS: YAWWWWW!

a pressure that i can handle is only between 100 to 350psi.
more than this no. i will get ruptured so easily. so, in any condition where the pressure is blowing up, i always BACK OFF, WHITE FLAG ON MY HAND yaw!

listen to this song that is not related to above sentence at all.
i just fall in with this song yaww. hah!

KELLY CLARKSON - cannot beat her voice yaww!

I really hate to let this moment go
Touching your skin, and your hair falling slow
When a goodbye kiss, feels like this

Don't you wanna stay here a little while?
Don't you wanna hold each other tight?
Don't you wanna fall asleep with me tonight?

Don't you wanna stay here a little while?
We can make forever feel this way
Don't you wanna stay?

Let's take it slow, I don't wanna move too fast
I don't wanna just make love, I wanna make love last
When you're on this high, it's a sad goodbye

Don't you wanna stay here a little while?
Don't you wanna hold each other tight?
Don't you wanna fall asleep with me tonight?
Don't you wanna stay here a little while?
We can make forever feel this way
Don't you wanna stay?

Oh yeeah

Oh, you feel so perfect, baby
That it feels so perfect, baby

Don't you wanna stay here a little while?
Don't you wanna stay here a little while?
Don't you wanna hold each other tight?
Don't you wanna fall asleep with me tonight?
Don't you wanna stay here a little while?
We can make forever feel this way
Don't you wanna stay?

i always tell people.
if you fall in love again.
it means miracle happen.

and now.
the point hit me.
at this stage after i've been with someone for 5years.
truly madly deeply in love konon that bring and make me so loyal whatsoever.
and we finally broke.
i would say; sbb jodoh tak ada.

i fall again. with someone.
someone that even younger than my age.
and where he is so adorable onto my eyes.
but, as i said. i've been spent 5years with the old one.
that makes me now deny all my feeling towards new guy.
why?
because i'm so afraid. things would happen twice.
sakit putus cinta, tuhan saja yang tahu but thank god.
all the solah truly help me cure the pain.

but still. at this moment.
i will set the new guy free.
i'm too afraid to fall in love, to be in love but still i'm as human being,
i need love to help me stand on the top.

i'm not good in writing. what i wrote above is just my feelings rite now rite here, at the end of corner.

i pray to god. if let say someone i met is the someone that he send from heaven, please give me the feeling.

aku tak mahu memberi harapan atau diberi harapan, kerna kalau semua hancur. sakitnya aduh bisa ke tulang.

aku punya hak mahu jaga hati kamu, mahu jaga hati aku. sakit dulu yg aku rasa, kalau hubungan ini ga bisa jadi, aku ga mahu kamu rasa sakit seperti mana pernah aku rasa dulu. saat2 aku jatuh terduduk.

ngerti ga. .?
kamu tetap aku sayang banget.
akan aku doakan kamu dilindungi ilahi.
biar aku yg sakit biar aku yang menangis.
asal dianya bukan kamu.

peluk bantal lena sendirian. nite

BICARA AKU YANG SUNGGUH

STORY PART 1
sungguh,
takut aku akan mati.

bukan kenapa-kenapa.
tapi jika tuhan kata.

kekiri kau.
syurga itu tak layak buatmu.

di tahajjud itu aku mohon,
kalaupun sujud aku tidak seberapa.
cukup untuk aku rasa damainya syurga.
dari jauh pun tidak apa-apa.
bisa?
ngak!


STORY PART TWO.

sungguh ini aku bilang perpisahan itu adalah satu anugerah.
anugerah teragung dan terhebat.
kalau perpisahan itu membuatkan aku patuh, teguh, tunduk, taat.
berkali aku bilang pada diri; mengapa tidak saja kau redha?
hatta berkata seorang kristian pada aku: Alhamdulillah kakak, you get rid of it.
kutanya dada ini sekali lagi: mengapa aku mahu angkuh untuk tidak redha.
saat ini kurasakan. sungguh syukur itu seperti mahu aku layangkan kedada-dada langit.
biar bisa malaikat semuanya menyambut hingga langit yang tujuh.
bukan kah itu terlalu indah.
jadi untuk kian kali aku tetap bilang sama hati.

REDHA REDHA REDHA.
istikharah, jawapan pembuka segala.
Maka aku sekarang terlalu REDHA dan SYUKUR itu membuat aku terlalu bahagia.
bahagia yang amat.
tapi.
seringkali mereka ga ngerti.
dibilang sama aku: kau cuma sihat diluar, bukan di dalam.
Apa yang kau mahu dari bibir aku?
sungguh syukur ini membuat orang ga percaya.
kenapa kalian?

aku bilang sama kamu: AKU PUNYA ALLAH swt.

surat buat amalina

Amalina,

kamu tahu kan:

Kita bertemu lantas kita bercinta.
Oh sayang,
Kita berpisah lantas merana hati kita.

Itu hakikat tertulis untuk kamu di dunia.
Maka, kamu sayang janganlah alpa,
Kerna masih punya Tuhan Yang Esa.

Oh dulu, pernah saat jiwa sedang membara ku bilang jua.
Semalam kita berjumpa, hari ini kita bercinta, esok kita tua bersama.

Rupanya.
Esok sudah ga hadir lagi untuk kita.
Tatkala cinta mati udah jadi debu berterbangan.
Bertaburan ke angkasa yang Tujuh.
Dari samudera hingga ke bukit Puchong.
Aku punggah segala rasa.
Menghidup denyut nadi.
Yang kian pulih untuk kuatkan aku hari-hari.

Terima kasih sayang, sendiri aku meniti malam melayari indah bintang.
Membuatkan hati ini terlalu bahagia, walau tinggal aku sorang.
Tapi masih, aku punya Tuhan.

xoxo,
Amalina

Assalamualaikum

Hi.
Lamakan?
I left this page.
Thinking to get back to this wall.
Tapi.
Aduh.
Malasnya.

Harap semua sihat.
Mungkin kalian sudah lama tidak jengah ke sini.
Atau,
saat-saat kalian jengah, mungkin cara nulisnya ada beda kan.

Well.
It will happened.
A very strange writing.
From young lady that have great heart.

For the passed few weeks since i broke up in June with my in mind so called future husband, (but Allah say no!)
Many things changed.
Many things affected my career, my life, my sleep over the night.
In fact, it gave impact to my appetite.

But.
As the sun set in late evening, same goes to human.
They will changed as time goes by.
And yet,
I would say that because of certain things happened in my life.
I'm now a better person, a girl that have strong heart.
A girl that looking forward to improve in all aspect.
I'm now more positive and I do avoid negative aura in my life.

I pray to God.
These would remain for the sake of my Islam, Dunia, Akhirat ku.

Kalau ini janjinya mana-mana pintu syurga jejak kaki aku,
ambillah apa yang Kau pinjamkan, aku REDHA wahai Ya Rabbi.

love!
Amalina