i was waiting at workshop one day.

there was a young man waiting his car fixed as well.
i felt quite boring so i get closer to him and we talked.

i spotted at his car plat - there were few corak on it.
so i asked: are you buddhist
he said yes, how do you know.

it was the design that captured my eyes; my buddhist friend told me so before.
young man: oic
mon: what is the relation of the corak with your agama
young man: actually it depends on 'guru' that you learned or believe, different guru will come out with different corak
mon: m, interesting
young man: having this on carplat could avoid someone's from bad luck such accident etc. it is also belief to "call the money"

mon: oh-ho, ic.

he then suddenly talked about islam with me saying that he got a lot of muslims friend and don't mind to convert if he one day will marry to muslim girl. he also mentioned he has one uncle convert to islam as well.

young man: tapi i tengok dia x solat pun. he only perform prayer on friday.
mon: you know why?

young man: i got no idea.
mon: he convert to islam because of someone's else, not because of Allah
young man: i dont see anything wrong of not sembahyang pun.
mon: there is no point of convert to islam but you not practise the way to be good muslims, correct?

if one day you have to convert, do it because of Allah. not because of someone else.
if you do it because of someone's else, you can't see the beautiful of islam.
you cannot see the miracle of belief that you are holding on, betul tak?

young man: betul juga tu.

:)

saya berdebar.
part of myself i think it will be definitely approve by embassy.
part of it i felt it gonna be delay.

but overall, i still pray that i will be depart on 21st feb.

Ya Rabb, make it happen.
I want to feel you love.
I want to stare at your baitullah.
So, please let me go.

Runtuhnya Sebuah Dosa

Inilah maksud saya.
Dengan apa yang saya katakan.

"anak-anak adalah 'apa' yang ibu bapa tinggalkan.

Jika Islam yang diajari pada anak-anak.
Islam lah yang akan anak-anak bawa walaupun selepas kematian ibu bapa.

Islam dan Iman takkan hilang di hati.
Baru senang duniawi ukhrawi.

Bukan senang mahu patuh, mahu taat.
Pujuk hati, lama-lama mahulah dia ikut apa yang akal kata.

<3

it is ok baby.
things will be fine.

come, we hug..

Please Ya Rabb, Make it happen

Dear Embassy,

Please approve my Visa so i can visit Baitullahilharam ;(

Moga - moga,
dapat menjadi tetamu Allah,
dalam masa terdekat ni.

Bila saat aku berkeputusan pergi seorang diri,
sebab tak tertahan rasa rindu pada kasih sayang Ilahi,
dan di saat semua orang terkedu bila aku katakan aku menumpang mahram,
pada aku;

Tuhan akan jaga aku,
walaupun aku bukan siapa-siapa,
hanya hamba yang hina-dina,
tapi aku yakin pergi aku dijemput,
dan biarpun berjuta orang mengelilingi Baitullah,
Insyaallah; akan ada lorong-lorong terus terusan buat aku sorang,
mudah tawaf 7 dan saie aku, kerana apa?

rupanya aku kesana sorang; kerna aku bersangka baik pada ALLAH;
yang aku senantiasa berada di dalam lindungan - NYA.
moga 120 keberkatan yang ada di Baitullah akan dapat aku perolehi saat tawafku - solatku - dan bila hanya aku memandang rumahMu.

to be continued.

i'm looking forward to build up a family.
but then i have no one in life.

i asked God, if you can send Hawa to be Adam's partner, i pray that you can send me someone from heaven as well.

i know that God is listening to my doa.

nite.

Ombak Rindu

haip!

last week after finish with Adidas Trail Run, dengan tak mandi ape nye and still dlm peluh masam, singgahla kat U8 Space located in Bukit Jelutong. ape lagi, mak jemah sempat la layan Ombak Rindu kan u olls ~~~

well, ceritera yang best even tough macam agak simple. They still have some climax and attractive plot.

but then, the storyline masih terikat dengan line di dlm novel which i believe kalaulah filem ni tak terikat sangat dengan jalan cerita novel; mungkin penerbit/pengarah boleh buat cerita ni lebih kebabom.

Lakonan Maya Karin sangat awesome ok. totally unexpected kot. well, i'm looking forward if she's going to play any other film in near future.

lagu? superb. i was crying not because of the storyline, but because of the song. it is really touched! oh man.

i got another run event this sunday. i'm planning to re-watch the movie maybe at Alamanda. Hihi <3 gotcha!

what a boring blog that i have.
semua malas nak buat.
semua benda buat suam-suam kuku je.
time idea ada, laptop xde.
time laptop ade, idea pulak tah ke mana.
teeeheee!!

seriously, I'm hunger for new job and better pay than now.

what say you? I'm not in comfort zone either! hoh!

i wanna keep my faith high.

aku mohon pada Tuhan;

kalaulah dugaan itu diciptakan untuk aku tanggung sorang-sorang.
ciptakan aku jua ketabahan berlipat kali ganda.

biar dengan ketabahan ini saja bisa aku berdiri teguh.
biar aku sorang - pun.

:D

what a bad day today!

early morning when i was ready to go for work. My car was bumped! huh.
spoiled the mood je.
That chinese lady bising-bising. i was like; excuse early morn nak terpekik-pekik ape ke hal nya; jom la pegi balai.

huh.

Tuhan,

kadang-kadang bila semua benda kena buat sendiri, penat sangat rasa badan ni.
That's why suara bercakap perlahan je. kadang2 malas nak layan semua orang. banyak lagi masalah lain yang besar kan?

Bila sampai balai, perempuan tu tanya; kenapa you lambat, bukan you depan dulu dari i ke;

silap besar la, kau siapa nak cakap dengan aku suara tinggi-tinggi. ye tidak?

aku wat dek je. kakmon tak tengok lgsg kat pempuan tu, and tak jawab ape pun dia tanya. haha.

padan muka dia. masuk office pun lewat dekat kul 215pm dah after settle semua perkara.

then dah dekat office, most of work are pending due to server down. jawabnya; kemaskinikan fail ajelah. @ 530pm, balik rumah pegi berendam dalam kolam.

float and sink the body, feel released sangat-sangat.

after a long time

after a long time.
tak masuk dapur.
hari ni mencengkam sangat-sangat sanubari nak masak.

punyala nafsu maha tinggi kau, after work pergila ke kedai cina dekat puchong perdana tu.
just nak beli periuk kukus je kau.
huh, dah lama dah nak beli. delay punya delay. ish, mane leh jadi kut ye?
pegi la beli, hamik kau dek kerana "hangin" nak masak kunun, periuk tu harga RM60 hengget for 24cm punya besar.

on the way balik, singgah speedmart, beli telur; castard; and susu cair.

teehee! betul la tu, puding gula hangus or maybe nak stylo sikit; cream caramel katenye (iye ke tidok).

My Interest

starting this year. seriously asyik membusykan diri je. pegi sana, pegi sini, join event run semua, just nak make myself busy and fully occupied. so that tak rasa bosan and boring.

well, things happened for reason kan.
i kept telling myself, only God knows what the best for me. isn't?

when my life changed, my thinking towards every single thing turut sama berubah.
sometime, i even found it is very hard to talk to people. and if i think we have totally different view, i decided myself to shut up.

i just listen to them.

when you staying alone (i mean so-called single kan) you only feel happy when you be with your people. other than that, bila balik kerumah da start feel a bit (i repeat; a bit)

i'm thinking to adopt one child for myself. teehe, but it would not be that easy thou. in terms of financial, i don't think i'm so strong to raise her.

well, looking forward. i'm very strong enough to stand on my own feet.

tru some activities that i'm now with, ramai orang kot kita boleh kenal, borak, bertukar pendapat semua. and they are all just fun. some of them could turn out to be our real good and best friend. those who are not, just leave them behind. well said, bravo!